--+--lURvE yA alwAyz--+--

2011-07-11T00:48:00.002+08:00

i've learnt how scary life can be..
in life. even though they may deny it...but this is the FACT !
in everything that you do. whether it's sports competition, your studies, your performance, your planning, or even just going to watch a movie..
the first question that people would ask is ABOUT THE END RESULT !
they do not care what happened during the event or before.. it's all about the END RESULTS !

so it's like my studies..people don't usually ask me how do u thk you did..they would ask "so what did you get ?" isint this the sad fact of life ?
so no matter how much effort you put into studying or trying your very best to do well, if your end results is not good or not pleasing to the ear..that's it.

i'm just super super super super duper sad about the news of not playing at my piano concert..
it was my dream to perform at the concert..
but maybe....
maybe i shld not thk of it this way..
maybe it was my fault in not putting in enough effort..
maybe i did not work hard enough..
maybe there is more than i shld have done...
maybe they saw/marked/hear wrongly...
maybe they made a mistake..
maybe i don't have enough faith..
maybe maybe maybe.......................
but i'll never reach there....sigh.

2011-07-10T19:34:00.002+08:00

WHY ARE MY EFFORTS ALWAYS PUT TO WASTE !!
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY !!
FIRST MY STUDIES !!
THEN MY PIANO !!
WHAT'S NEXT !!
THERE'S NOTHING I DO THAT I GET IT DONE WELL AND RIGHT IN THE FIRST ATTEMPT !!
NOTHING !!
URRGGHHHXXX !!

2011-06-26T20:49:00.004+08:00

hey. it's been long long since i last blogged. hahax.
my life has been an adventure. (like real)
i went KL right after my exams even before the holiday week started. and i just came back from bali.
bali was awesome ! seriously love the beach thr ! soo peaceful and relaxing.

but once i touched down in spore.. BAMP ! all the projects and endless work i hv to do runs through my mind.. sianx..back to the stress me agn..
but. this time, i'm learning to take it one step at a time. letting go and letting God take me through this stress period once agn. (:

however, there are more to come.

the past few days..my family has been really weird. everybody's changing..

thr's something really strange happening. i thk it's me. it's because of me..

there must be something wrong.. something that i did.. or something that i shldnt do..

but wat...? =/

2010-12-23T01:57:00.002+08:00

hello. it's been ages since i last blogged.
i feel super lousy now. i feel that i'm the root of alot of troubles and problems.. haix.
maybe i shldnt be where i am now.. i shall return to my old life..so that people would not have to feel interupted cause of me..then they can get back to their normal happy lifes..
i'm not a really gd friend too..that i know for sure..
i'll try my very best to change my attitude and how i do things. esp not to show so much of my feeligns on my face and the most impt not to get sooo emotional at times..
and maybe i shld not go to crusade corner that often anymore..
maybe tat is why it caused all the complications..
i just wanna be a normal friend without complications....why? why? why?
it's all my fault... :(
and.....my relative..that thought i was married just passed away on mon..her husband also passed away a month ago..before my bdae.. haix.. i will mis her..i really wanted her to see me get married for real.........................haix ):
may they find rest and be with the Lord...
gd nights..hope i will never wake up.....
this world is too stressful.too scary..too complicated for me.. ]:

2010-07-07T02:42:00.003+08:00

hello.
it's been a long time since i blog.
my life have been up and down.
there are really bad times and really awesome times.
and i did really badly for my CTs ! )):
i've let my parents and myself down.such a shame ! ):
whatever it is..
im going to work tripply hard le !
someone can teach me to study smart ? i want to study smart but i dunnoe how.
hahahax..
that all.
i miss mommy ):

2010-05-24T12:28:00.003+08:00

im sooo packed with projects !
SIANX !
i when can i really sit down and seriously study ?
haix... i really hope to do well this year. ):

i miss you ♥

2010-05-22T12:09:00.007+08:00

hello.
haven been blogging in a while.
i reach home late almost everyday even if i end sch early.
weird rite ?
i oso dunnoe why.hahahax.
anw. next week is e-learning week.
no sch for me except on wed. but but but...thr's sooo much project and work to be completed !!
and test will be up after we return.sianx ! ):
my life has been up and down..
i dunnoe man.
im soooo confused now.
so luan. i dunnoe wat to do.. ):
i really hope and pray that you will change..

but even if u dont.pls return to ur old self.

i also pray and hope that you will wait for me..
i miss all of you.i want it all.
the times u used to talk alot alot to me..

the times u used to send me home almost everyday..
whr bus rides home is never enough even if it was more than an hour..
and we would take strolls to add time to be together..
the times u used to be soo close beside me..
the way you look at me in my eyes..
the way we held hands..
the times you were super duper sweet to me..
the times we laughed together..
the times that u teased me..
i miss everything we did together.. ):

2010-05-05T01:03:00.002+08:00

2dae had presentation.
SIANX !!! ):
then after tat went home early.
so went a little shopping wid my friend at amk.
hahahahax..
cotton on ! i thk i love cotton on clothes !
heehex. i need more clothes !
i need a new bag ! i need more accessories !
i need more pens ! i need alot of stuff ! hahahahahax..
tml got volleyball ! RUNNING ! YES ! YES !! =D

2010-04-29T23:40:00.006+08:00

sch was ok i guess ?
i have really nice teachers and friends.
thank god ! [:
i PRAY HARD that i get into klavierensemble (piano) club !!
it is my passion to play SOLO FOR PIANO !
i might also consider joing the worship team for playing piano if i get in. :D
but after sch was BEST AND MOST AWESOME!

met up with GRACE LU !!!!

and back to cvss BBALL playing !

oh man..i miss those times.

we used to meet more than twice a week ? to play bball !!

I MISS ALL OF YOU !!!

soooo feel like making time stop RIGHT NOW ! ):

2010-04-28T21:25:00.003+08:00

2dae was fun.

we build rollar coaster 2dae ! super super cool can ?

hahahahahahahax...love our structure even though it wasnt really stable.

hahahax. =d then after tat was volleyball.but it was raining.soo not much.we learn the basic which i alr learned during sports camp.hahax....but im still not veri gd at it. =d

after tat.had to go home for some reason. so i missed magnium trail lesson 2dae or isit the interview ? dunnoe lar.hahahax..tat all ! ihatebtsa.

2010-04-28T01:33:00.004+08:00

yeah. im recovering from sickness !
hahahahax..
tml is S&W ! woohooo volleyball.
can't wait ! then after tat meeting GRACE !!!
I MISS GRACE TTM !!!!! ♥♥♥♥
don't worry. my heart is still with the clique.
forever and always ! ♥♥♥♥

2010-04-27T00:09:00.001+08:00

2dae is a terrible day. :(

2010-04-24T20:01:00.003+08:00

soo happy now !
BIG THANK YOU to Mark and Olivia and Carina for coming to visit me when im sick !
my first time ! :D
reallllyy happy !
and i get to eat my fav almond jelly too !
wooohoooo ~ :D
(but i hope all of u all don't get sick too ! =d)

2010-04-24T10:35:00.004+08:00

my first week of poly hv been tiring at the same time fun i guess ?

had so much activities.

had to stay back late in sch to practice for dance4fun for 3 nights.mon tues wed.

practiced till late at night..and performed on thurs.

sadly we didnt even win anything.but nvm. i had fun [:

last night was great ! first time going for this kind of "clubbing" party.hahahax..

but now im having fever.soo i cant go out. SAD !! :(

haix...hv to miss my clique outing...

haix haix haix..:(

2010-04-21T23:30:00.002+08:00

heyo ppl !
2dae had a great day ! [=
i thk i will love wed !
yup..had dance 2dae..
and i thk im loving it alot alot man !!
now im in a serious dilema.
NRA or PIANO ? both my loves. my passion. my ambition.
how sia ?? anw. joined volleyball for S&W ! woohoo..
gonna get even more tanned ! when im alr sooo tanned ? hahax !

2010-04-20T23:15:00.003+08:00

OMG ! i missed one of my tutorial !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM GOING CRAZYY !!!!!!! HELLP !!!
WAT TO DO ??? WAT TO DO ??? WAT TO DO ???? ='(
im stressed ? but it is like only the 2nd day of school !!!!! =[[[[

2010-04-17T23:25:00.001+08:00

sch starting on mon !!!

sooo much thing to do ! but still dunnoe how to do !!

HOW HOW HOW ?? GOING CRAZY !!

2010-04-16T14:17:00.003+08:00

hellloo !

yest went for INCANS outing to SENTOSA !

woohooo..

i was super duper duper happy ! =D

hehehex.went hope super late.

cause after tat still went pool-ing.craz rite ?

hahahahax..but i had fun ! =D

2010-04-12T14:38:00.003+08:00

BAOC programme ! =D

2010-04-12T14:30:00.003+08:00

heyo !
sorry hvn been updating..
BACO turns out to be quite fun ! hahahahax..
but not as fun as SSC camp.hahax..
went sentosa on sat.
SSC plus clique outing..
i save $3 but hanged out mostly wid clique ppl..
cause sec sch friends are still the best ! =D

2010-04-06T23:31:00.001+08:00

BAOC was boring.
the ppl are not caring and not enthu.
SIANX !
tat is all i hv to say.

2010-04-05T22:51:00.007+08:00

went out wid her for shopping 2dae !
how i missthepastman...5 years has passed.
so fast lor...lost contact wid some of them.
wonder how are they now..hahax.
chit chat alot.hahax.from boys to sec friends to guys to family.
hahahahax.i still l♥ve her.
she is the best and most faithful friend i hv in my life !
8 years of faithful and true friendship and still counting ! [:

imsonotlookingforwardfortml!

2010-04-05T01:20:00.003+08:00

i had a great day !
church was awesome !
headed to minds cafe after church..it was SUPER FUN ! =DD
then after tat headed to the hospital to visit my friend.
He will never let you suffer and go through all that pain alone. He is with you all the way.

GOD WILL PROTECT YOU ! HE IS YOUR HEALER !!

GET WELL SOON GIRL !!! [=

2010-04-03T23:32:00.003+08:00

hey. just came back from work..
tired day. had bbq followed by movie and board games marathon yest..
cool rite ? i watched of a total of 4 movies ! hahax...tired le.
hahahax.tat all [:

2010-04-02T01:31:00.003+08:00

went back to sch to collect cert.
omg. the sch is so unfriendly now !
but... i miss the food thr man ! the nasi lemak.
wanton mee.meekia. fried beehoon.roti prata.baked rice.bubble tea.
omg..love it man ! hahax.
went craz wid the 4 flowers.
blind mice at carina house !
we finding back wat we did last time ! LOL!
then went bowling.hahax ! =D
tat all [:

2010-03-30T23:42:00.004+08:00

i really miss the times we had together.

2010-03-29T15:22:00.002+08:00

VESTAS! ♥

2010-03-28T23:07:00.002+08:00

2dae had church.
no children.so we slacked.keheex.
then waited more than 2 hrs in church for my sisters !
tsk tsk tsk.waste my time..
went for bbq wid gf ! hahahahax..
it's bw time !! keehehehehex !

2010-03-27T15:59:00.004+08:00

2dae went out wid my parents to some fair thing.
played some games.hahax..
got free scoup from HiGAN DUS (dunnoe how to spell) ! yeah !
hahaax..
had free pizza ice cream and hot dog..
hahax.no bad lar.hahahax..
but i forgot got dounut.then u nvr eat.sad lor !
hahax..tat all.
ltr going for bbq at my aunt's condo.
plus swim and bowling !!!
woots !! love bowling !! =D

2010-03-24T20:42:00.006+08:00

heyo ppl ! just came back from SSC NP sports camp !!

it was fun but average.hahahahax..im super dark now can ?

hahahahahax..miss my classmates.but im also missing my new friends too.kehehex.

2010-03-19T01:37:00.001+08:00

hey.
camp is nearing le.so fast lor !
i hvn pack..
haix.so many things to get done..
suddenly feel i hv no time for everything.
hv been slacking too much bahx !
hahahahahahahax..
hope camp will be a great one.
don wish to make anymore regrets.
but i keep doing it..haix.

2010-03-16T20:47:00.001+08:00

2010-03-16T20:28:00.005+08:00

hey.

2dae went to get my laptop.

on the way home when i was alighting.

i missed the step and fell.

sad sad sad..=[[[[

hui rong le..haix.

bad luck is coming my way.

haix..shall stay home till sch starts bahx.

2010-03-14T00:46:00.001+08:00

2dae went for cartooning class.

quite cool.

hahahax.

tml got teaching to do..

sianx.

headache still.=[[[

2010-03-12T22:06:00.002+08:00

2dae went IT fair to see cameras and laptop.

waa.bad day.had sore throat and aches all over my body.

feel so sick.so went off wid grace.

came back and slept.

still spinning.sianx..

hope i don fall sick or come during camp..

sianx sianx sianx..=[[

2010-03-10T23:32:00.004+08:00

hey! just came back from chalet.

had lots of fun !

went thr in the late afternoon.

then bbq and then chit chat and off for bowling !

suck lor.dunnoe wat's wrong wid me.

didnt bowl well.siao de. and cause of that i damn emo.

hahahax. disappointed in myself bahx. hahax.crazy me...

after bowling we walked super long to the elias mall to play L4D.

had a great chat wid cherly on the journey.

hahahax.i see them play i oso scared.

then i prayed and read the bible on my phone..

hahax..then after tat went out to get some air and went back in.

they changed game.it was more interesting..hahax.

B so pro lor.aiming damn zai.

then he oso teach me and explain to me how to play.

hahax ! so nice of him.but i oso don play de.=d

then walked back under the poisonous drizzle of rain.hahahax..

then thr was lightning. the girls were so cute.

they squat down to avoid the lightning strike.

hahax..back at chalet.we played the drinking game.

hahahahahahax..had lots of fun agn..

but it became sian cause everyone was tired and super little playing.hahax..so after tat played concentration.

ate alot of marshmallow lor.sian

hahahax..we oso thought of so many other games.so silly but funny.hahax..

then went up to the room to slp but end up talking bout alot of stuff..

funny lor. then slept with lots of interuptions in between.

slept till 3plus.hahax..then went to play bball.

super no energy le.hahahax..

no blind mice.(which cause the coldness ltr)

then was emo all the way le..

bad ending for the last chalet..

plus we nvr take group photo..

sianx sian sianx...tat is the most impt thing lor !!!

HAIX !!

2010-03-07T21:07:00.001+08:00

hey.

church was alright 2dae.

hv been watching dramas !

kehehex..

2010-03-05T23:40:00.003+08:00

im so irritated !!!

give me a break !!!!!!!

AAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR !!!!!!!!!!!

soooooo irrritattiing !!!!!!

you are getting on my nerves !!!!!

im ignoring many ppl..

hen FAN !!

tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk !!

2010-03-03T23:17:00.003+08:00

2dae shld be my last day at work before i start sch.

hahahax..

gotta prepare for poly life.

and pack my stuff and relax.

chalet coming up.dunnoe can go anot lor.

sianx.

anw.had fun 2dae.

last day doing customize.

so God was so sweet.

most of the orders that came in were customize !

i love him !

yup.first one wasn't veri nice.

but slowly.

hahax. =D

quite happy and sad too.

cannot bear to leave.

the aunties thr make me wanna work more lor.

sianx..hahax.anw.it's decided.

and hv new ppl coming in too.

nice girl.hahax..nice to meet her too. [=

tat all. hope i can go chalet and stayover too.

pray hard !

2010-03-02T23:39:00.003+08:00

hey peeps.

went out wid my gf 2dae for a movie.

hahax.it's called dear john.

quite ok lar.nt veri nice.

hahahax..

then went shopping.

omg.kill me please.

i spend like almost a 100 bucks for just two days !!

tat is like two full day shift ! how money flies..

and worst thing is i bought everything else except my slipper !

and my slipper is about to break apart..

gosh.wat hv i turned into ? hahax.

sianx.cause of tat i skipped dinner 2dae.

and cause i seriously need to go on a diet !

im adding on fats ! OMG ! my shape is going out..

i tried a few pants and i cant fit u noe ?

this is bad. real bad !!

tml is my last day of work.i guess..

hahax.

tat all.

2010-03-01T20:41:00.007+08:00

FUN DAY !
2dae went sentosa wid clique.
hahahahax.
had lots of fun.and lots of money gone.
hahahax.
played the luch and sat the sky ride twice !
the second time was fun ! cause we went to the long side.
soooo fun ! now then i noe thr is two ways lor!
so wish to go agn !! hahahahax..but need money.sian.
then played volleyball.super no energy cause the sun was draining our energy out.
so went to play wid the water for a while.hahahax.
then played agn.
one girl one guy team.
hahax.we lost ~ sianx.
after tat went to eat.
and then headed home.
walked home from hougang mrt wid him agn..
hahax.so nice of him to walk me home.
hahahahahax..
anw.found out some truths. it is O-M-G ~~ !!!
cannot believe man !!
hahahax.tat all ! [=

2010-02-24T20:23:00.003+08:00

fun day!

went bowling and pool !

sooo much fun.

long time nvr do all these stuff le.

hahahax..

then went eat pizza hut.

really pampering myself 2dae lor !

hahahahahahax..

except tat i walked home from kovan.

gd exercise to get rid of wat i ate.

hehex.had a gd chat too. [=

2010-02-23T23:20:00.002+08:00

2dae worked full.

first shift was boring.super little ppl buy.

then night shift thr was a chaos at 5 plus.

the cash-register had some prob.and at that time super alot ppl came to buy.

like wth lar !

then it was super messy and everything.

but thank god it was solved and nothing went wrong.

*phew*

after tat had a few customize.

sianx..

i didn't do it really nicely.

haix..=[

no matter how hard i try.

how hard i work for it.

i still wont be gd at it..

if ur talented u are.if ur not. no matter wat u do is useless..

haix.disappointed and hurt.

then had bad mood all the way.

and my sister made it even worst.

tsk tsk tsk..terrible day !

anw.saw py.e.f near my shop ! hahax.

2010-02-22T23:13:00.002+08:00

2010-02-22T23:11:00.001+08:00

OMG !

a guy followed me home ?

freaky lar !

2dae worked night shift tat why came back late..

bored day.

so little customize cakes lor.

sianx.

tat all. [=

2010-02-20T23:32:00.003+08:00

exhausted day.
yest was a...long story.
anw.worked till 7plus then went for cell..
i slept at 4am to do up the slides.
super tired alr.
but it does not end.
2dae woke up at 7plus to go church for practice.
then after tat have to work till 6plus
then rush down for dinner wid my relatives..
tired tired tired..
(feels like the times during O level period.hahax)

2010-02-18T23:14:00.005+08:00

my customize brownies !

hehex.

(ones tat i am proud of.hahahax)

2010-02-18T23:10:00.003+08:00

went mel's house for the past two days.

hahahahax..

see them gamble. like addicted lor.hiyo..

played game of life 2dae.soo fun !

hahax..but sad tat i had to work..

work was ok lor.hv new person.

i thk she is a ah lian.

hahax..tat all.

2010-02-14T22:09:00.006+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !

HAPPY VALENTINE'S &

APPRECIATION DAY !!

went church in the morning.

so little ppl lor.hahax...

but the msg was gd.

God had planned 2dae that Valentine' s day and Chinese New Year to fall on the same day when he created the heavens and the earth.

so 2dae was a day to show our relatives and loved ones how much you love them.

esp to your relatives for some we don see each other that often.

learnt tat the chinese FU word symbolizes that when we have God (shen,right side of the FU word). all the good wealth and health will be added onto man. (left side of the FU word)

went home to prepare for my relatives to come.

this year everyone came at the same time..

so our house is like full of people.

imagine from the living room window to my piano is filled wid ppl !

hahahax.

im an AUNTIE ! (sound so old lor) hahahax.

since valentine's day falls on the first day of chinese new year.

means lots of couples cannot celebrate together.

cause they hv to go to their family's house for visitation and bai nian.

but it is bit weird 2dae.

weird cause im used to celebrating valentine's day in sch.

whr we hv the angel and motor thing. and we will be soo busy giving out and receiving gifts tat we prepared for our friends and to people who we show bit more love.hahahahax..

this year..i nvr do anything.hahahax.

2010-02-12T23:39:00.004+08:00

bballed wid clique 2dae.but i was super late.

so only for awhile..hahax.gave the successful cake !

hahahax.i really liked the design alot.hope cherly too.

hahahax...anws.after tat had a treat at pizza hut !

wohooo ! thanks ! =D

then off to work.no selling of brownies till 8pm.so it was like customizing all the way..

then did this really nice LOVE brownie..but i nvr take photo..sianx.=/

many heart and val's day brownies 2dae.hahahax..

no matter.it was bored till it closed.hahax..sianx.

shld i quit ? or shld i just stop? i love it cause i can customize..

but.......haix.

2010-02-11T22:38:00.003+08:00

it's a success 2dae ! hahahax..

bought wat i wanted during the shopping wid my gf !

hahax.sooooo happy ! =D

worked OT the past few days.

tues worked till 2.30am. wed worked till 11pm..

thr were super large orders as i said.

hahahax..crazy rite ? hahahax..

gonna quit soon.though i like the job.

but i don wanna work thr le..

hahahahahax...(one reason cause it's low paying)

2010-02-08T23:49:00.002+08:00

halfway through packing my stuff..

ok. maybe 1/3..hahahax.so much stuff to throw.

sad..looking at all my hardwork hand written notes.

i really was crazy when i studied lor.

found alot of the same notes for the same topic for the same sub..

not one.not two but 3 or more lor ! hahahahahax..siao rite?

maybe cause i lazy go find whr i put it so i rewrite it agn..hahahax.

and found alot alot of old stuff tat i still cannot bear to throw.

kept frm pri sch till now..hahax.

i don even bear to throw my notes and test and worksheets lor.

but thr's no use keeping them le..

but...

the things that im most happy to throw away is CHINESE WORKHEETS AND NOTES !!

hahahahahahahahahax...no need them anymore.though bit sad tat i wont be studying them le.but YIPPYY!!!!!!!!

*ANYONE NEEDS O LEVEL TYS OR SECRET RECIPE TO do well IN O LEVELS ?*

hahahahahahahax...

2010-02-07T22:23:00.002+08:00

churched 2dae.

i finally bought my shoe !

but it was one size bigger than wat i wanted.

looks like a guy's shoe lor ! cause it's so long and big !! OMG ! =[

(how i wish to hv small feet like my girlfriend.)

sianx..

driving is a "in" thing for my church ppl.

both my cuz got their driving license le !

dunnoe when can i drive man.hahahax..

2010-02-06T23:47:00.002+08:00

worked at 12pm 2dae.

helped in the kitchen.

tou chi some of the cookies.(they were yummy!) =d

hahahax..had fun !

and thr were lots customized cakes.

hahax..and those are really big huge cakes.12 pieces.16 pieces..

siao lor.then 3 cakes including the big huge cakes collection is at 5pm.

at tat time the brownies just came out of the oven. so we had to rush..

and thr were soooo many ! and huge ! and..customers at tat time too !!!

can u imagine ? our small shop ? going in chaos wid ppl running in and out ??

thank God it is over ! hahahahax..

ate just acia 2dae. yummy !(but $money$ flies away.hahax)

i love the crispy chicky. but so ex..hahax.

tat all for this hectic and adventurous day.but i love 2dae!

hahahax [=

2010-02-04T23:05:00.003+08:00

2dae get to sleep late.
wid no disturbance.
went to gym wid c.
hahahahax..quite ok.but i prefer running in the stadium.
more space to yourself. (gym hv tooo many guys ! they shld hv one for ladies !!)
then went for interview.
didnt really like the job ! hahahahax..
(hope i don get selected !)

actually didnt hv to work..

but last min had a call and had to work..

sianx..

work was bad 2dae.though i met wid a grp of customers who were super friendly.

hahahax.they even asked if i can give my no. LOL !
but it wasn't a working day for me..gd thing i only worked for awhile..

2010-02-03T23:14:00.003+08:00

made cakes in the morning..

failed agn ? i thk it's better.but nt thr yet.

im so so sry..i feel so so bad.. =[

2dae did night shift.

felt bit weird cause i am used to doing afternoon bahx.

hahahax..but it was gd.

thr was customer every 5 min.

and there was a period whr it was super packed outside our stall..

hahax.maybe it is a normal sight for night shift bahx..

hahahax..did one really nice customise.(nice to me)

but didnt take a photo of it..

sianx..and yest too..

hahax.

im really proud of myself.[though im nt up to standard yet.]

but i can see improvements ! YEAH !!

*applause* hehehex.. [=

2010-02-02T21:37:00.009+08:00

HAPPY BLESSED BIRTHDAY MY DEAR JIE !

so old liao !! hahahahahax..

lovely flower ! hahax.

brownies done by ME !

(still no standard yet. =/ )

2010-01-31T22:18:00.004+08:00

2010-01-30T21:32:00.004+08:00

continued the "Just walk across the room" sessions.

2dae was bout Living in 3D.

1.develop friendship

2.discover stories

3.discern appreciate next stop.

was ok.cause this are stuff tat we need courage and God's promtings to do it.

without him.i don thk any of this will go well..[=

catched the "Blind Side" 2dae.

it was nice and touching true story..

hahax.and we sort of gave my sister a surprise bdae celebration..

but sadly she wasn't surprise at all ? wat the..too smart le.

hahahax.

yest was a FUN DAY !

hahahahax..

they came over to bake cake..

fun fun ! though we seem quite foreign at it.

it was almost a success..hahahax.

im sry tat i didn't help much..

went for board games day.

it was fantastic ! i love tat "standing duck" game.

hahahax..

hope ur had fun too [=

2010-01-29T21:03:00.003+08:00

went doctor and shopping 2dae.

boring day..i rather work.

hahahax..

can't wait for tml ! hehehehex.

2010-01-28T20:47:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEN LING !!

2dae woke up late..

but in the end i wasn't late.hahax..

business has been quite bad these few days.

super little customers..

then when it was alr 4 plus..

the boss comes and say "hv order of 50 packets of brownies."

is those wrapped ones..

then i had to OT agn..

but after tat my friend came and take over..

if nt i thk i hv to stay till 6 plus..

and it's one person solo.cause one of the auntie was sick and went home..

so short of ppl to help..

gd thk i got away.hahahax..

but come to thk of it..i actually like wrapping them.

hahahax..cause i like to tie the ribbons.hehex...

went shopping wid my mom and sis after work.

hahax..tired day. [=

depressed.i accidentally reset all settings in my phone..

all my past msgs are gone..(including those u sent).

my inbox is now empty..

sad sad sad.sobx..

does this means i hv to erase memories i had wid u?

2010-01-27T23:22:00.005+08:00

went out shopping wid beloved g.
hahahax.
bought a dress? or is it a shirt ?
hahax.
and glad to have her..
thanks for listening to wat i had to say..
i kept it veri long inside le..[=
sad thing is...
nt going to same sch wid u..sianx.
alot of my classmates going to np..
i shld be happy ? hahax.

2010-01-27T22:41:00.005+08:00

these are done by the aunties.

i'll need lots lots lots of practice to reach this standard.

(i helped decorate this small heart wid the auntie's instructions.hehex.)

this is done by my friend. SO NICE RITE ???

envy..]=

compared to my customized cakes !

thr's a million time more room for improvement still.. ]=

i tried drawing a ribbon.

hahahax..(failed)

but im gd at wrapping this!

wrapped a total of 100 plus ! (for a large order)

hahahax.=d

2010-01-26T22:13:00.002+08:00

im so pissed.

she made me wait for an hr to go shopping..

in the end she say wanna go home.

tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk..

i hv nth else to say.

2010-01-25T23:31:00.010+08:00

one day without money really can freak me out.
went to buy food before going to work cause i was starving..
but after i order.i realized tat i did nt have enough to pay.
it was crazy lor! thank god i called my sister for help.
work 2dae was boring.
cause super little customers..
the auntie say cause of CNY.
sianz lor.had no customize to do oso..
thank god the day was over quick.
hahax..[=
~~u seem to be always appearing..~~
~~i clearly know tat it wasn't you that i saw..~~
~~but why do they talk act and walk like you do ??~~
~~is this the kind of feeling of missing a person ?~~

2010-01-25T00:03:00.003+08:00

had church.

week one of "Just walk across the Room".

it was gd i thk..

1.Be willing.

2.Listen and obey.

3.Just walk.

hahahax..

simple but impt points !

hahahax..

after church went to play arcade wid my cuz and my sis.

it was super fun !! hahahahax..

i wanna play bball !!

hehex.

2010-01-23T21:52:00.007+08:00

enjoyed work 2dae..
though i had to OT agn..
but i had lots of fun ! did alot of customized cakes 2dae.
and...I FINALLY COMPLETE MY MASTER PIECE !!
so happy..
shall upload my master piece cake next time..
hehex..
though it wasn't really nice..
but it is my first time doing this.
hahahax..
after work went to run wid c.
hahax.ran 6 rounds..veri little lor.
compared to last time...how much we ran during dance and SYF period.
this is nothing man..
hahax. had a really long chat.. =D
long time nvr do this le..miss those days after dance whr we will talk alot alot even if we are dead tired.hahahax..[=

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2010-01-22T23:44:00.004+08:00

2dae something cool happened !

while doing sales outside the shop (giving out samples)..

i met a group of KOREAN PEOPLE !!

i feel so honoured ! hahahax...

they were really surprised when i said i knew how to speak in korean.

hahax !! OH MAN ! this spurred me on learning korean agn !!!

wooohoo ! so cool !!

and the guys are really cute ! hehex.

and...im practicing on my wordings to improve my customize skills !

i want to do really well ! hahax. =D

went for cell too.

nice passage. learnt alot from this short verse..

2 Cor 5 : 1-11...though it was bit chim..but finally understood it.

im coming back to u ! hehex. =d

to my friends..

if u thk tat all christians goes to heaven. you're wrong !

not all christians goes to heaven.

that was wat i want to clarify wid u..

it is like marrying to a person whom u do not love..

in black and white you are her husband/his wife.

but in ur heart ? are u truly her husband/his wife ??

ok maybe let's not talk bout marriage.

boyfriend and girlfriend..

are u together because u really love each other ?

or is it cause u just pity that person and feel bad ?

or is it cause everyone is having one then u don't want to feel odd ??

biblically. it means that you have to believe whole-heartedly to be a true christian..

that's all. [=

take care ! (:

GAINED WEIGHT AGN ! ~~ =[

2010-01-21T21:36:00.003+08:00

worked in the afternoon agn.
hahahax..had fun though time went pass very slowly.
hahax.learnt something new too !
and..i OT 2dae.dunnoe if will get paid anot.
hahax..
went to RITZ-CARLTON hotel to eat dinner !
hahahahahax. 5 star hotel lahx !! food was GREAT !
which means i gained back wat i lost yest..sianx =[
need to run more this sat !
but the food was really gd. and it is all FREE !!
hahax... =D

2010-01-20T22:13:00.009+08:00

customized cakes tat i made ! bit ugly though. =d

(my first few cake for this year)

this was for my mom ! hahax.

just came back from dinner wid g & c.
went swimming at ankovale after work with them..
hahahahax.. so fun ! miss the pool and playing in the water.
more than a year nvr swim le. stamina dropped alot.
used to swim more laps and faster than this.
hahahax..
successfully completed 8 laps ? hahahahax..
shall run next week. it i will lose more weight then. hehex..
those friends in JC and hving A levels this year. JIA YOU !!! [=
God will be with you all the way ! =D
[im happy to talk with you agn. ", ]

2010-01-20T10:01:00.005+08:00

did alot of customized cakes yest !
i love it ! hehex. (shall post up some of my customized cakes that i took.)
i thk i would like it if i see more of my friends at work..
hahahax.JUST JOKING ! =D

2010-01-18T23:26:00.002+08:00

worked 2dae.

my sis joined me..

was bit weird though.

but i thk am more comfortable wid her ard.

hahahax..

and got ppl pei me all the way home ! hahax =D

i thk i am happy wid my work place and wat im working for.

I SEE SHUAI GE AND MEI NU EVERYDAY !!

hahahahahahahahahahax =D

tat time i served one guy super cute ! and he smiled at me ! hahahahax..

2010-01-16T23:33:00.002+08:00

work work work..

time passed veri slowly 2dae.

hahax..

but i did 3 customize cakes !

happy ? but im nt at the auntie's standard.

their standard is super nice de.

compared to mine...im miles away.

hahax.

cant wait for results for the course to be out..

alot ppl say tat i can get in my first choice de.

i really hope so ! [=

2010-01-16T00:03:00.003+08:00

went to cuz house to play band rock !
hahahahax..
i realize tat im better at singing than playing the drums or the guitar.
hahahahax.
had fun though..
and my cuz taught me piano ! woohoo ! tough but fun..hahahax.
im loving it !

2010-01-15T01:39:00.008+08:00

decision making time !
time to make our decisions and the RIGHT one..
though its bit late and im slow..
but............
THANK GOD FOR MY RESULTS !!!
i took a really really really long time to accept my results.
but im still sad bout it though..haix.
no matter..
I WANNA SAY A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL MY TEACHERS !!!
MRS NORLINA.MR NG JJ.MR LEE KIM MING.MR PATRIC CHONG.MRS LEE SNG YEE.LIAO LAO SHI.MS FAZLEEN.

2010-01-13T18:43:00.002+08:00

just came back from chalet !!

woots !! its damn fun !! esp the night cycling !!

i love cycling !!!! hahahahax..

i'll miss my peers badly..after we part frm the chalet.

it would be super difficult to meet up le.

everybody will be back to their working days..

sianx..

anw. hv to choose our course soon...

headache on wat to choose man ! hahahahax..

i hv learnt to accept my results...but it is still depressing..

2010-01-12T01:09:00.003+08:00

im sad.
im disappointed.

2010-01-10T20:17:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAIZ !
hahahahax..
i keeping to wish ppl on my blog.=d
church was ok..
had "girls" cell outing.hahax..and two crashers.
hahax.but had fun though..
went botanic gardens.hahahax..
wanted to fly kite but thr was no wind and thr were too many trees.
hahahax..
we fed the swans ! oh man. i love their angelic whiteness..hahax.
sooo nice ! but their legs to match their body though.hahahax.

2010-01-09T23:35:00.003+08:00

terrible day !
firstly. i wore a shoe tat hurt my feet badly.
and i had to bear wid the pain till the end of the day.
2ndly.work was terrible.
did alot of stupid mistakes and embarrasing stuff..
oh man..this is a bad start !
mon is drawing near..
im getting more and more afraid..
design? sci ? business ??

2010-01-08T22:08:00.003+08:00

went poly open house 2dae.

fun fun..

NGEE ANN is AWSOME !! hahahahax.

got a shirt for saying tat ! woohooo !!

sooo happy.

had fun in the team challenge ! though didnt thk we did very well..

hahax..but love it ! i can say tat im proud of myself. =D

look forward to tml tp open house.hahax..

anw. getting results on mon. nervous ? excited ?

im more afraid tat i wont do as expected.......haix.

2010-01-06T20:03:00.004+08:00

everybody is working le..

im so bored.

i wanna work.

i wanna count.

i wanna study.

i wanna run.

i wanna dance.

i wanna swim.

i wanna workout.

i wanna cycle.

i wanna rollar-blate.

i wanna ice-skate.

i wanna bowl.

i wanna play pool.

i wanna learn taekwondo.

i wanna learn kickboxing.

i wanna design.

i wanna....cry.

2010-01-06T14:35:00.001+08:00

getting results on mon.

hah....

2010-01-05T23:44:00.005+08:00

wat to do now ??

first time get praised by interviewer..

but i stupidly reject the job !

full of regrets ! i could hv learnt something new..

but agn..i like the other one too..

haix. now wat do i do ??

i missed a great big chance..

sianx. =[

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2010-01-04T21:48:00.004+08:00

2dae went to eat lunch wid g..

hahahax..

in the end i nvr do spring cleaning..

too lazy le.hahahax..

got job.but..

dunnoe whether wanna do.

quite worried.

hahahax..

plus quite far for me..sianx.

anw. learning piano le ! hahahahax..

cant contain my joy now. hehex. =d

2010-01-03T23:30:00.002+08:00

went church 2dae..

something happened. shall not detail it here.

anw. just felt tat i shall return back to my past..

before i move on too far away..

thanks to someone tat reminded me..

and pulled me back before i go too far. [=

fate ? god's plan ? hahax..

im very happy :D

2010-01-01T18:46:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!

2dae is the first day of 2010 !

wow..so fast.hahax.

had fun last night ! though thr was bit of prob..hahax.

but i enjoyed myself. [=

jia you peeps ! [=

2009-12-31T20:08:00.003+08:00

2dae is the last day of 2009 le..

how time flies..

hahax...

im still not prepared to enter the new 2010 yet lahx..

hahahax..

but time waits for no one..=[

2009.

the year our class bonded the most, struggled the most. laughed together the most.

though it was tough and hard..

but we went through it together.

now its time to say goodbye 2009.

close the 2009 chapter and start a new chapter 2010.

leave the unhappiness behind and carry the sweet memories with you.

stay happy and smile always my friends. [=

wanna wish everyone happiness in this new year..

and those going back to school soon.

JIA YOU !! and BE HAPPY ALWAYS !! =D

2009-12-29T22:31:00.003+08:00

2dae went out to meet y.c.. to pass them christmas presents..

hahax.went to help y's aunt to sell oyster cakes.hahax...

similar to my brownie work..hahahax.

miss working alr.nvm..

going back to work in jan which is just a few days away !

yippy !!

2010 is coming..

hope it would be a year filled with joy and love !

cant wait to go to poly too !

hehex.

2009-12-28T23:37:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday SISTER !

haha................

2009-12-28T01:16:00.000+08:00

sry readers. my blog got bit of error.hahahax.pardon me. will change it soon ! [=

2009-12-28T00:51:00.003+08:00

hey.

hvn been updating.

hahahax.

24 dec.

was christmas eve.i was busying doing last min presents.went out wid my mom to help her find those last few ppl who hvn got presents.hahax..so didnt go for the youth event in church.sherry and claudia didnt go either..hahax.

25 dec.

was christmas day.didnt go for sgoon cell too.cause went out wid clique.hahahax.had fun even though it was a short while..grace and i were super late.cause i was late.and had to look after milky.hahahax..brought milky along which made everyone happy.hahax.played bball and exchanged presents.i got $10 for a present ! straight cash !! wohoo ! hahahax..had fun..did nt regret missing it..then went cuz house for christmas dinner.cuz were "scolding" me of nt coming for the youth and sgoon events..hahax.though i missed alot of fun...i guess it didnt matter bahx.i oso nt tat close to them..i feel im drawing away.....

anw.honestly.this year christmas i really had the joy of buying the presents and wrapping them..but didnt have the joy to celebrate it..maybe cause i was sick and didnt feel well bahx...sianx.

26 dec.

went to ms ang's house for christmas lunch.met grace.i was late agn.hahax..so made shir wait..sry.=P had fun playing pictionary man though thr were very little ppl.and mostly not we know de..hahahax.mostly from shir's batch and seniors...tired day..sore throat still hvn heal...

27 dec.

went to church.haix...didnt get to give out my presents.which means i hv to wait till next week.which means tat christmas is alr over....haix.super no mood now.regret buying and spending all the time doing the presents.......haix.christmas is getting worst..it didnt even feel like christmas had come but it had just passed...sianx sianx.

went to eat pizza to celebrate my sister's advance bdae and my belated bdae...wow ! food was ok.i ate alot pizza...hahax.

tat all..

current mood : disappointed.

2009-12-22T20:26:00.002+08:00

2dae went out shopping myself.
hahax..
almost done wid christmas shopping.still left a few ppl and adults..
hahaax..
had tuan yuan dinner 2dae.hahax..
so had good food !
curry chicken and fried wan ton..

im sry my friends..
i really hope tat u don blame urself..
cause im just hurt tat why i said it out..
but it looks like its better nt to say it out...[=

2009-12-22T01:14:00.003+08:00

i thk.

i shld just keep quiet..

saying things out might create more misunderstandings...

its better to see one person getting hurt then two..

haix........

i hate myself...=[

2009-12-21T21:00:00.002+08:00

christmas is near.

it feels like christmas is still far away..

a new year is starting..

but im nt ready yet.

haix haix..

this sux.

went shopping for christmas presents..

shopping alone really sux.

but it gives me alot of time to thk...

lots of time..[=

2009-12-21T01:59:00.000+08:00

i feel hurt.really hurt..i dunoe if i shld say this..i feel bad if i say it but i cant keep it inside any longer..cause i keep seeing the pics on facebook..

my bdae.prom night..wat i was really wishing for is not to be the center of attraction..

yes i did wan my whole class to celebrate wid me like all my other friends..

wat i really wanted was to be really happy on that day.but i wasnt...

on ur bdae.i spent hours at night to get ur present done.even though it was quite last min..but i put in effort.gave u something tat u can keep in memory...i did my best to make it perfect.like it was not a last min present....but wat did u give me on my bdae? nothing. but it does not matter. the thing that matter is..u didnt even put in any effort. yes.that day was prom night..so u had no time cause u have to prepare urself for prom night..i forgave u cause u paid part of the cake i guess?

i call u my friend.

wat have i done wrong to u ?

maybe i've done lots of things to make u hate me.

maybe i have not done enough..

maybe this is ur way of getting revenge bahx..

maybe..i wasnt really a gd friend of urs.

maybe im not worth it.

maybe.....

tat night..i thought alot.

i cried alot...

maybe i was the bad one...

but i tried really hard to change the way i am..

but im just like tat..

maybe... i hv not tried hard enough bahx..

nth can be done to change it anyway..

big thanks to grace mel faiz and jun yang.and those who hv done alot alot for me..

but i still hv to say tat...

i hate prom night !

i really hate it to be on my bdae....

whenever i hear the word "prom" or "birthday" it reminds me of this..

this hateful day..

i dont thk i will be enjoying any of my bdaes anymore...

it has become a nightmare to me....

im sorry my friends.im really sorry.......

readers:

maybe u really hate me now bahx.

maybe u thking tat im greedy too.

maybe u thk that im selfish.(only thk of my own feelings and nt putting myself into other's shoes)

maybe u thk tat im really veri bad bahx..

pls don pity me.pls don say i thk too much.just hate me bahx.im sorry.....

2009-12-20T21:33:00.003+08:00

pictures.more to be uploaded soon..

2009-12-18T23:02:00.002+08:00

hellos !

im veri happy and high now !

hahahahax..

just came back from sch concert..

it was great ! it was really worth the money..hahahax.

went to sch early in the morning at 7plus to help dancers with the make up and stuff..

i initially really wanted to help with the make-up..but sadly did nt..

but this is my first time helping the dancers to tie up their bun..

it was quite tough for my first one.i took really long..but after tat. i learned and got better at it le..[=

yup.the sec 3 dancers know me as the "generous" person cause i spray super alot on their hair..hahahahax..

i thk they will hv a hard time washing their hair 2dae..opps.sry.=P

but it looks neater.no wonder teacher always put lots of gel and spray on our hair. even though we hated it..hahax.then helped them to pin the shiny stuff ard their neck and body..i poked my fingers a few times while doing it..hahax.

after tat had to rush home cause i forgot to bring my bus card..hah..

met up wid a and yx after tat to go thr..at first i thought i wont know how to go.but in the end it was the place tat i went for my sister's choir concert..hahax.watched them rehearse then went to meet the rest of them at lao pa sa.hahax.thanks for the drink and food.[=

then went back to SCH..the concert was great ! hahax..the dance was really nice..hahax. next was the choir followed by the drama.. it was funny though.hahahax. then followed by the band.

had to sing sch song too.hahahahahax..

but i really miss sch..

i miss it badly..

seeing all my teachers make me miss them more..

seeing all my seniors and schmates melts my heart..

its a sad ending of this chapter in my life..

time to start a brand new chapter of my life after i get my results..

2dae was the release of N level results..

same day as last year when i took mine..

how time fly pass without us realizing it..

shall upload photos soon. [=

take carex.

and...i feel bad..

really bad..

i do stuff without realizing that someone has suffered for me to let me have what i want..

im sry.really really sry..

2009-12-18T12:50:00.002+08:00

yest went out wid family..

went to sit the spore flyer..

cool lar.but i was scared.cause i hv phobia of heights..hahax.i felt like we were stuck up thr.freaky lor..hahax. but nice scenary of the small singapore.hahahax..

after tat went to eat then went to night safari at night..

it was scary but cool..

it was like a night walk lar.all is dark.and its super super dark.veri little lights.cause these animals wont come out when thr is light.hahahax..

saw some animals tat we will seldom see..like mousedeer.so cute lar.and flying squirrel and wolfs..cool rite? hahahax.

nice experience though...but i'll nvr go in thr agn even though its free..it's freaky.hahahax.

2009-12-14T21:07:00.004+08:00

hey.

2dae woke up quite late.

was super tired.i oso dunnoe why.hahahax...

went out lunch wid my grandma..

told her a joke our korea tour guide told us..

see her laugh makes me really veri happy.hehex. [=

then came home..

its so boring at home lor.

2dae too lazy to go out..sry ppl..

but went to meet grace to collect stuff.hahahax..

yeah.got a chance to meet her..so talked to her lots lots..

miss her soo much.hahax.but she has to fly off tml le..sad sad..

i really hope thr is a chalet in jan ! and i really hope and pray tat i can stayover..

i really wanna go.hahax..

anw.look forward to this fri sch concert ! =D

my music is not working agn.its so irritating and sad lor.haix.

2009-12-14T01:33:00.003+08:00

hellos.

2dae went to church.

but i had duty..so had a chance to leave early..

rushed down to meet lai sim..

reached orchard central at 12plus.

then waited for 1 hr plus.then they say only can get poster.but cannot get signature..

sad lor..=[

queue so long only get to take poster.but ok lar.got poster gd enough..hahahax.

ate lunch too..

he bought macs for us.didnt know he would come lor..

hahahahax.so gd.hahax.

i owe him 3 bucks..

then went in..

had to wait agn.they were late for 30 mins !

but when they came..

wow ! so happy !! seeing them live before my eyes for the veri first time in my life !!!

this is going down into my history bk ! hahahahax.

13 DEC 2009 i saw the korean girls group BROWN EYED GIRLS !!

they are super duper duper duper pretty !!!

esp GAIN !!!

oh man..i love her !

how i wish i was as pretty as her..hahahahax.

then went to chase them after they left.

but they seem to disappear.hahahax.

then went to cuz house to slack for awhile..

had a gd chat. hahahax.

thanks for letting me reflect back on my past..

and comforting me.[=

results are coming out soon..

i hv a bad feeling bout it..=[[