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♥Monday, December 21, 2009 1:59 AM
i feel hurt.really hurt..i dunoe if i shld say this..i feel bad if i say it but i cant keep it inside any longer..cause i keep seeing the pics on facebook..
my bdae.prom night..wat i was really wishing for is not to be the center of attraction..
yes i did wan my whole class to celebrate wid me like all my other friends..
wat i really wanted was to be really happy on that day.but i wasnt...
on ur bdae.i spent hours at night to get ur present done.even though it was quite last min..but i put in effort.gave u something tat u can keep in memory...i did my best to make it perfect.like it was not a last min present....but wat did u give me on my bdae? nothing. but it does not matter. the thing that matter is..u didnt even put in any effort. yes.that day was prom night..so u had no time cause u have to prepare urself for prom night..i forgave u cause u paid part of the cake i guess?
i call u my friend.
wat have i done wrong to u ?
maybe i've done lots of things to make u hate me.
maybe i have not done enough..
maybe this is ur way of getting revenge bahx..
maybe..i wasnt really a gd friend of urs.
maybe im not worth it.
maybe.....
tat night..i thought alot.
i cried alot...
maybe i was the bad one...
but i tried really hard to change the way i am..
but im just like tat..
maybe... i hv not tried hard enough bahx..
nth can be done to change it anyway..
big thanks to grace mel faiz and jun yang.and those who hv done alot alot for me..
but i still hv to say tat...
i hate prom night !
i really hate it to be on my bdae....
whenever i hear the word "prom" or "birthday" it reminds me of this..
this hateful day..
i dont thk i will be enjoying any of my bdaes anymore...
it has become a nightmare to me....
im sorry my friends.im really sorry.......
readers:
maybe u really hate me now bahx.
maybe u thking tat im greedy too.
maybe u thk that im selfish.(only thk of my own feelings and nt putting myself into other's shoes)
maybe u thk tat im really veri bad bahx..
pls don pity me.pls don say i thk too much.just hate me bahx.im sorry.....