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♥Saturday, October 21, 2006 11:28 AM
hey.2dae went to sch late agn.waited for yun yu.she came late.talked to her.after that went to bookshop to write my name for the job to sell books during holiday.hope that will be my veri first job that i can do to earn money.after that went to the hall.the PSI was 101 so they made us go to the hall.cause it has reach the unhealthy range.after that.they talk bout behaviour agn.did not read agn..after that dismissed to class.mdm jamaliah came in and took our class.talk bout next year what will happen..make me feel so depressed..after that she gave back home econs,maths paper 2 & art..haix..so disappointing..i cannot take it liao..why??i work so hard..why i still get so low??izzit i nvr study hard enough??or izzit that it proves that i am stupid??why??haix...after that went for recess.went to look for mao pei.she ask how was my result..i ren bu zhu jiu liu xia yan lie..haix..too depressed..how can i disappoint my parents??why am i so selfish??they work so hard to earn money for my school fees..and i nvr study hard enough..haix..feel so down.thanks mao pei.u tried ur best to cheer me.thanks so much.after that found yun yu.they went to buy things to eat..i ate bread(as usual even if i look like a werido.i dont care).after that petrol around agn.i bought the chinese-english dictionary electronic de.haix.waste my money..after that i went to class liao.did not do much petrolling as yesterday.then cme teacher nvr come.we listen to mp3 agn..haix.veri sian..my frend songs veri nice.then ltr did not even noe i fell asleep..super tired.after that mdm jamaliah came in agn.she talked bout streaming thing agn..haix..kenny is the highest in sci..haix..i at 11 position for sci..veri lousy sia..haix..why??haix..so disappointed..haix...no mood..after that went home with shirlyn,mao pei and yun yu.but shirlyn walk wid me to compass to take bus.then she ask me bout my result agn..haix.did not realli tell her..cause..don wan to talk bout it anymore..then she say what sub i should take in future to get into a good poly.she say mostly is need chem/physics but not chem/bio..haix.then she say i should take POA rather than art or d&t or even f&n.cause hse say all that need alot of hard work.then in future oso not that impt.she say POA is more useful.but my maths have to be good.then teacher oso said that onli the top 40 ppl will get to do A.maths next year.haix.hope i will be in top 10 so that i will at least get the eagles or smthing.i don wan to disappoint mommy and daddy liao..haix.then after that came home took 159 then saw eunice.talk to her bout the results agn..haix..after that went home.i got lost in hougang point.they renovated the whole place..oso dunnoe where is everything.but sooner or later oso will get use de..now got more shops and more things to see..and it is oso nicer.like a mall lahx.so cool.after that went home.realise i nvr eat lunch.onli chee qui and a bread.lazy go eat larx.haix.so depressed liao.oso no appetite.then watch tv.slack bit.then went out with mao pei and yun yu.they went to buy swimming costume first.then meet them at the houang complex.we were all children.hehex.so onli paid 50 cents each.hahax.we got changed and put our things in the locker.after that went to the pool.we saw a monkey.hahax.veri funny.then we kept talking bout it.taught yun yu how to swim.hehex.she need more practise.after that went to the deep pool.it was warmer and quieter.mao pei went to swim her lap first.i taught yun yu the frog style.hahax.she is improving.not bad..hahax.jia you! it was my turn to do my lap.i onli did one then veri tired liao.dunnoe why.maybe cause veri long nvr swim liao or maybe cause of the haze.hahax.then went swam till 5.then went to bath.while we were in the pool.we saw the monkey on the roof top of the swimming pool shelter fighting with two scare crows...after we bath..went to eat abit.yun yu & mao pei ate nasi lemak and i ate the spring roll. after that i went home first.they went to the sports hall to check the price for i think badminton.haix..veri moody..then wanted to walk all the way home so that can think what i wan to do in future.but the bus came..maybe God did not want me to do that that's why..haix..i took the bus.then my mother was home.during dinner time..my sister ask how was my result..i felt so ashamed i did not want to say.but i could not hide..so i just said my marks..i look at my mother..could see she was quite sad..but all she said was..what can u do??the marks are like that..what can u do??u cant go back in time to change..and its too late..rachel said..you tried ur best..jeremy cheered me up..but..i still feel so hopeless..cause they could get good results than they cheer me up??no right.haix..just feel so down and useless..my sister could get 4 As and NO Cs..and me?i dont even get an A!!sorry mommy..sorry daddy..i realli work very hard..but..i still cant do well..sorry..i am realli sorry...please forgive me...i am so...wait..why am i thinking so negative??kk.must stop thinking negative..must trust God..must trust him.....must think positive....='(