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♥Monday, July 11, 2011 12:48 AM
i've learnt how scary life can be..
in life. even though they may deny it...but this is the FACT !
in everything that you do. whether it's sports competition, your studies, your performance, your planning, or even just going to watch a movie..
the first question that people would ask is ABOUT THE END RESULT !
they do not care what happened during the event or before.. it's all about the END RESULTS !
so it's like my studies..people don't usually ask me how do u thk you did..they would ask "so what did you get ?" isint this the sad fact of life ?
so no matter how much effort you put into studying or trying your very best to do well, if your end results is not good or not pleasing to the ear..that's it.
i'm just super super super super duper sad about the news of not playing at my piano concert..
it was my dream to perform at the concert..
but maybe....
maybe i shld not thk of it this way..
maybe it was my fault in not putting in enough effort..
maybe i did not work hard enough..
maybe there is more than i shld have done...
maybe they saw/marked/hear wrongly...
maybe they made a mistake..
maybe i don't have enough faith..
maybe maybe maybe.......................
but i'll never reach there....sigh.
♥Sunday, July 10, 2011 7:34 PM
WHY ARE MY EFFORTS ALWAYS PUT TO WASTE !!WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY !!
FIRST MY STUDIES !!
THEN MY PIANO !!
WHAT'S NEXT !!
THERE'S NOTHING I DO THAT I GET IT DONE WELL AND RIGHT IN THE FIRST ATTEMPT !!
NOTHING !!
URRGGHHHXXX !!
♥Sunday, June 26, 2011 8:49 PM
hey. it's been long long since i last blogged. hahax.
my life has been an adventure. (like real)
i went KL right after my exams even before the holiday week started. and i just came back from bali.
bali was awesome ! seriously love the beach thr ! soo peaceful and relaxing.
my life has been an adventure. (like real)
i went KL right after my exams even before the holiday week started. and i just came back from bali.
bali was awesome ! seriously love the beach thr ! soo peaceful and relaxing.
but once i touched down in spore.. BAMP ! all the projects and endless work i hv to do runs through my mind.. sianx..back to the stress me agn..
but. this time, i'm learning to take it one step at a time. letting go and letting God take me through this stress period once agn. (:
but. this time, i'm learning to take it one step at a time. letting go and letting God take me through this stress period once agn. (:
however, there are more to come.
the past few days..my family has been really weird. everybody's changing..
thr's something really strange happening. i thk it's me. it's because of me..
there must be something wrong.. something that i did.. or something that i shldnt do..
but wat...? =/
♥Thursday, December 23, 2010 1:57 AM
hello. it's been ages since i last blogged.i feel super lousy now. i feel that i'm the root of alot of troubles and problems.. haix.
maybe i shldnt be where i am now.. i shall return to my old life..so that people would not have to feel interupted cause of me..then they can get back to their normal happy lifes..
i'm not a really gd friend too..that i know for sure..
i'll try my very best to change my attitude and how i do things. esp not to show so much of my feeligns on my face and the most impt not to get sooo emotional at times..
and maybe i shld not go to crusade corner that often anymore..
maybe tat is why it caused all the complications..
i just wanna be a normal friend without complications....why? why? why?
it's all my fault... :(
and.....my relative..that thought i was married just passed away on mon..her husband also passed away a month ago..before my bdae.. haix.. i will mis her..i really wanted her to see me get married for real.........................haix ):
may they find rest and be with the Lord...
gd nights..hope i will never wake up.....
this world is too stressful.too scary..too complicated for me.. ]:
♥Wednesday, July 07, 2010 2:42 AM
hello.it's been a long time since i blog.
my life have been up and down.
there are really bad times and really awesome times.
and i did really badly for my CTs ! )):
i've let my parents and myself down.such a shame ! ):
whatever it is..
im going to work tripply hard le !
someone can teach me to study smart ? i want to study smart but i dunnoe how.
hahahax..
that all.
i miss mommy ):
♥Monday, May 24, 2010 12:28 PM
im sooo packed with projects !SIANX !
i when can i really sit down and seriously study ?
haix... i really hope to do well this year. ):